Around

I've been around lately...chillin', dancing, homeworking, scrapbooking. It's been exciting. I also love music. And I have to-do list a mile long, so I don't really have time to write anything...maybe someday!

<3 Ed

Afro Blue

Second week of school and I'm behind...surprise there, I know. I need to read the Odyssey and write a paper on it...ulgh. Super soon here, I'm going to go get help with my calculus. I just need to wait for a media file to upload on libsyn.com. Hopefully I'll get a chance to write more stuff later today and when I say today I mean tonight.

First Day!

Today was the first day of classes! It was really exciting, let me tell you...haha. I'm psuedo excited about my calc class. I did my first homework assignment today; I'm ahead of the game. Of course this wonderful lead will leave me in a few days, but it is fun to have it while it lasts!

Today was also the first day that I used my credit card! It was way exciting! I bought my cs book with it. Speaking of cs, my partner smokes, ulgh...smoke. Now, four out of the five days a week, I'm going to load up on perfume and body spray and just smell myself the entire class period. On the plus side, Brit is in the class and she's totally awesome, so I'm excited about that!

Things I Need to Buy:

• Greek and Roman Mythology books (around $200)
• Gas ($40)
• Another months membership at IndySalsa ($40)
• Pay back Corinne ($30)

I think that's it, hopefully. I don't have the Target card anymore, so I'm basically sol. On the plus side I have a paycheck coming in this Friday and I'm working on convincing my parents that they need to send my gas cards since I'm driving a lot. We'll see how that works out.

Pop Remixes

Silly Little Updates:

iTunes has been annoying me because I can't listen to iTunes radio without skipping every two seconds to reconnect to the network. Lately I've been listening to AOL radio, which isn't bad. They have better pop stations and a great latin station.

I've been practicing salsa a lot...by myself. I feel really awkward practicing by myself, but it does give me a chance to practice things like spotting and going in a line while doing a cross-body lead with a turn. I keep trying to get my dad to let me teach him the steps, but he doesn't want to learn : ( I really don't know of anyone else in my general vicinity that would be willing to practice salsa with me. In fact, I don't know anyone who I wouldn't have to teach the steps to. On Saturday, Adrie came with me to my salsa lesson. It was so much fun, she really liked it. I hope she continues with it because she could be so good at it.

I dyed my hair earlier this week. I died it darker to match my eyebrows. As Adrie said, it's an instant way for me to look more pulled together. And that's pretty awesome!

V for Awesome!

Yes, yes, I know that awesome doesn't start with a V. I bought V for Vendetta yesterday and I love it! I saw it in theaters, so I already knew that I loved it. The movie is just so perfect. I watched it with Easter as soon as I got it. I cried during the part when Evey was in the prison and reading Sarah's autobiography.

Watching V for Vendetta makes me want to write a great paper about the characters that Hugo Weaving plays and their role in revolution. Between The Matrix and V for Vendetta Hugo has played roles that are the government and the revolutionary. I think that in its own way, even The Lord of the Rings series could be a revolution. I think I'll start reading about revolutions. The research for such a paper would be amazingly fun and I think I would quite enjoy it. Maybe if I go into film studies I could do a thesis on it. But we all know that I won't be going into film studies, so it doesn't really matter.

Today I think I will go get my French horn and maybe even practice it for a little bit. On a different note (haha, what a pun), My computer is annoying me because I can't get my USB peripherals to work. Just wanted everyone to know.

Breakfast Foods

This morning Justine came for breakfast and it was so much fun!! That girl is so amazing and has wonderful thoughts. She expresses herself so well and is so professional in such a personable way.
I have lots to do this week and next. I'm really excited about next week because it's a beauty and pampering week! I'm thinking of getting my hair professionally colored. Nothing shocking, just deepening my brown and adding shine to it!
I think that's really it for now. My life is super boring right now since all I'm thinking about is packing.

Pet Peeves

Here are my pet peeves:

• People touching my computer screen
• When people leave the round circle thing on the milk container
• When things could be organized, but they aren't (not that I ever organize/clean anything)
• When people walk right on to the elevator without waiting for people to get off
• When people don't say "Excuse me."

Anyway, the fire alarm went off today in our house because the upstairs air conditioner was leaking right on to our fire alarm. It was all very exciting.

Podcast?

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itpc://http://depodcasts.libsyn.com/rss

The Ubiquity of Macs

I have come to the conclusion that conclusion that any time there is a computer in a movie it's a Mac. So I think Apple must have some sort of contract with some movie company. So I'm just going to make a list of all the movies I've seen with Mac computes in them. Get ready!

Movies

• Something's Gotta Give
• Stepford Wives
• Shall We Dance?
• TV Show: 24

So this is all I can think of right now. Hopefully I'll be updating this as I see more macs in movies. In case I forget, which is highly likely, you can always check out http://www.mac-spotting.com/. Think of it like a fun little hobby.

Hamburger Helper

So, I've been a busy bee and a very sick bee. On Tuesday I went to a Salsa class...I love going to Salsa classes. So that was my Tuesday. On Wednesday we had Hamburger Helper for dinner. After that I went to Indy with Haley so that she could go to a Verizon Wireless store in Circle Center. After that we went to Maggie Moo's, which is a cute little ice cream place in the mall. Walking back to the car my stomach really hurt, but I thought it was because I ate too much or there was too much sugar in the ice cream. So my stomach hurt the rest of the night.

Then yesterday I had the rest of the Hamburger Helper for lunch. Last night I felt so sick that I couldn't even finish the movie I was watching. Lying in the fetal position didn't even help; it was absolutely terrible! I couldn't get to sleep because I was in so much pain. I laid on my bed until about 5 or 6 until I actually went to sleep.

I still don't feel well : (

I find out after I get up today that Diddy thought the hamburger meat tasted a little weird, which is why she stopped eating it. I used to be a vegetarian and I still don't eat that much meat, so I had no idea. I thought it was supposed to taste like Italian sausage or something.

All in all, I've had a food born illness twice this year and they are no fun. I feel like I want to be a vegetarian again just to avoid meat and the risky illnesses that come with them!

Betsy?

Hehe...discussion session today. Narf!

Salsa class tonight! woot! I'll be wearing bandaids on my heels!

Melinda

I'm watching Melinda and Melinda and it's pretty good. It really makes me want to cut my hair. I really loved Melinda's hair through the whole movie. It was really cute scrunched. I love to dramatically cut my hair. I want to donate my hair to Locks of Love again. So, I have to wait to cut it until I have enough hair to donate. Last time I donated 13 inches. It would be so cool to donate that much again, but who knows.

Cute Hair:

Silver Lamp

Listening to: Opera Singer by Cake from Comfort Eagle

I'm at odds with myself. I really want to see this guy, let's call him Ethan, but I really shouldn't see him at all. I don't know why I want to see him, I'm perfectly ok without him, which is very reassuring to me. I always want to be ok with me before I'm ok with anyone else.

Yesterday I reloaded Windows on my laptop. So I'm hoping this helps to fix the skipping problem. If I scroll really fast up or down a page, it skips. I think I'll spend the rest of the summer dreaming about how much I want a Mac. But I'd keep my PC too. It could all work out really well. If only I had an extra $3500 lying around.

I made two new podcasts today. Yay for me! There's a silver lamp on my desk at work. Then again there's also a USB external hard drive. *Bad Hair Day*

To Do:

• Return movies to library
• Check on The Devil Wears Prada
• Return Aquamarine
• Fix up DW site

Listening to: Goodbye by Natalie Imbruglia from White Lilies Island

Girly Stuff

Yay!!! Girly things! I got my nails done last week. Cute acrylics with a little star design. I have to get them filled on Friday. I might go to a place by Home Depot because I like their air brush designs much better.

I've been going tanning, and when I say going tanning, I mean that I went yesterday and I went today. So that's been nice and warm. I haven't been wearing a sticker, so I guess I should start that. But, interesting thing is that it's tanning my nails. So I'm thinking of painting over them with my cute pink clearish polish. I think it'd look nice.

I looked cute this morning, but I didn't want to walk to the tanning place looking all cute, so I changed into a t-shirt. It smells really funny and not a good funny. I'll probably change again when I get home. Maybe I'll clean my room, that'd be fun.

Tonight I think I'm going to watch Pauline and Paulette. That's good because it will give me something to podcast about tomorrow. I'm going to go back to working now!!

Ice Mountain

So, I really have nothing to talk about. I'm in Greencastle for my summer job and I'm enjoying myself. It's really nice just being in Greencastle without the worry of homework. I've discovered that I love eating dinner with other people after we make it. Good times. I've also discovered money is just, well, money. Of course, as I say this, I'm not for want of anything. I like where I'm at right now, just comfortable with things. But I wish my hair were a bit less frizzy. I think I might write another post later about girly things that will make me sound super ditzy. And then perhaps later than that I'll write a post about alcohol and interactions with said substance...haha.

For my summer job I'm going to be producing podcasts. If you don't know what a podcast is, here's a great site: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Podcast. It's long, but it's helpful. As research for producing podcasts, I've started a podcast of my own. It's all about movies that I've watched recently. None of them are new releases, but just movies that I watch, by myself or with my roommates. Anyways, you can get it on iTunes if you search for My Movies. My podcast is the one with me as the author!! So if you want to know what I thought of those movies, take a listen. I don't review the movies, I just talk about stuff related to the movies. Basically I hope my parents subscribe, because I think they might be the only ones.

Random Things To Leave You With:

• Sippy Cups
• Condoms
• Hole Punchers

Funk

So, lately (and when I say lately, I mean yesterday) I've been in a funk. A bad funk, and it's not fun, but I don't want to do anything to get out of it. I feel like all my really good friends could help, but none of them are really here at DePauw. I talked to Brent for about an hour last night, which was truly the highlight of my night. I went to a towel party at 210 with swimmers. It was really no fun, for me. I'm not exactly close to anyone on the team. I think I have problems being close to people. I don't know, maybe none of our personalities "mesh well." Thank you, Clueless!! So it's probably for the best that I'm not in Alpha Chi or Alpha Phi, since it just wouldn't work out.
So I'm kind of hungry and I want to go to Marv's, but I don't want to go alone. Maybe I should go find someone to go with me. I'll recount more of my funk later. I don't know if this is making me feel better or not. It could be making me feel worse. I just don't even know.

Random Thoughts:

• PMS USB port
• Cole Porter
• GCB
• What does ITB mean?
• I Totally Blow?
• Island Tango Bitch?
• Incarceration Tempting Bait?

Meatloaf Mondays!

Haven't written in forever...sorry!!

• Meatloaf
• Meatloaf dance
• M C Hammer, It's __________ time!!

Conference

I dropped 2 seconds in my 200 free. That was my only good swim this meet. I don't taper very well. It's Sunday and I got drunk this afternoon...hehe.

Second Thoughts

Hello again online world and non-existent following. Here are my thoughts for this past week: I've enjoyed swimming this past week. I know we're on taper, but I really did like it. But the thing is that, I hated swimming before Christmas. I would call my parents in tears because I hated swimming so much. It's a huge time commitment, yet I don't know what I would do with my time if I didn't swim. My spring grades probably won't be any better than my fall grades. I take that back, I really want my spring grades to be better than my fall grades. But since things just seem to be going ok right now, it makes me think that I really do want to swim next year. Another part of me is banging its head into a wall at the thought of going through another swim season. And what am I going to do in the off season to stay in shape? And this team isn't like high school. People on this team swim for the purpose of getting faster and being really good at swimming. I want to swim for the fun of it, to stay in shape, and other non-competitive reasons. And there are some people on the team that I just don't get along with. We're civil and such, but not close. I'm not really close that many people on the team. But since I've spent so much time swimming, I haven't had any time to nurture my friendships outside of swimming and my friendships inside swimming aren't necessarily that great. So now, I just don't know what to do. And I'm kinda scared to talk to any swimmers about it, but I don't know why. I just don't really want them to know I'm not thinking about swimming...or something like that. Maybe I'll talk to my mom when she comes on the 23rd for dinner with Connie, but I don't know...arg!!

Random Thoughts for the Night:

• WinZip
• RUSH
• Roses
• Mac 'n' Cheese

Oh my!

It's been so long since I've posted, sorry about that. And this will be really short since I want to go to sleep. Winter term (class wise) is over!! WOOT!! I still have practice and a meet this weekend. But I can't wait until tomorrow because I get to sleep in for as long as I want!

Random Thoughts:

• A button that has two boxes after it with random words in each box. The button will say, "Things that won't help." When you click the button the two boxes will change.
• Why We Fight
• RUSH!!

Whelmed

I feel so overwhelmed. I have my e-Portfolio meeting tomorrow and I just started on it tonight. I truly haven't had much of a chance to work on it, between swimming and class and co-curriculars and trying to get enough sleep to sustain my life, my e-Portfolio has been pushed back. I was really busy this weekend, I had a swim meet on Saturday and my parents came down for that. They stayed the night at the Walden so I was with them all Sunday too, with a slight hangover I might add. I think I have a headache and I never get headaches. The Diversity Dialogues today were...I don't know what they were. It was too deep and I'm not good at stuff that's that deep. I don't understand racial issues I guess, maybe because I'm a majority. I don't know, it makes my head hurt more. One thing this guy kept talking about was a Chinese stereotype. According to the stereotype, a Chinese man couldn't be as smart or strong or athletic or romantic as a white male. I'd never heard any of those stereotypes for Chinese males. I just...err. I can't think right now. I have a big day tomorrow and I will be functioning on not enough sleep. I'm really not sure how I'll do it. I hope I go out tomorrow night, I need some light-hearted fun...wink wink. haha. Anyways, I'm going to go to bed now.

Random Thoughts for the Journey into Dream Land:

• The little curl that sticks out from a hat in the middle of someone's forehead (not a specific someone, don't be stupid)
• Nemesis
• Coldplay and U2
• 07-24-37
• Crying...a lot of it.

Me and Ebs...being stupid, haha

...well, at least I'm smiling

12:26

I've come to realization that my entry titles really have very little to do with the subject...sometimes. That was a lie, I don't why I said that. It's 12:26, that would be the time I started writing this entry. I woke up early today and went to practice, kind of like everyday. Then I had an ITAP co-curricular. On the bright side, I didn't have class...YAY!! I like yellow. I watched Wedding Crashers today. Funny movie, not necessarily a great movie, but it's funny in the sense that we laugh at embarasing things. That movie provides plenty of embarasing moments. Tomorrow I have a meet, sort of excited about that. My parents are coming down for it. Hopefully we'll get to unloft my bed. I hate climbing the ladder to my bed. I want to do laundry tonight before my parents get here so I'm not doing it tomorrow or Sunday. I don't like doing laundry on Sunday, I feel irresponsible. Weird, I know. I've just discovered that the coloring is all off, but I'm going to do anything about it because I'm a web retard.

To Do (1/12/06):

• Laundry
• Pick-up room
• Clean off desk
• Call parents and ask them to bring a box
• Finish reading chp. 5
• Listen to All Alone
• Start on E-Portofolio

Random Things to Think About:

• Bookcases
• Ballpoint Pens
• Sweatshirts
• Sheep
• Deer
• Moose
• What do the previous three have in common?

Truthing

I'm not going to lie...my stint/streak as a good girl didn't last long. But I will maintain that it is not all my fault. Being the respectable girl that I am, I could say stop at any time. Wait, scratch that...I think by not saying stop I just proved myself to be not that respectable. I think the word I wanted was respected. A couple factors came together and yeah. This guy tells me that I shouldn't get involved with him, but I feel it's a little late for that. And since neither of us is doing anything to prevent involvement...

And he says he doesn't want a relationship, at least I think he said that, but if I wanted a relationship with him, I would certainly be going about it a different way...at least I hope I would be.

I'm done for tonight. I have to get up early for swimming. We have weights in the morning and then I have buckets. P.S. buckets suck. so does getting out of the pool, I think I have pool wall burns (akin to carpet burns) on my knees and they hurt.

Random Thoughts Before I Go To Bed:

• Heavenly Velvet Luxe
• I Heart Huckabees
• Sheets
• Darkness
• Mud
• Odwalla water

Good Girl

I've been a good girl now for four days. haha, Anyways, practice today was hard. I was heating my shoulder in the training room and someone bitched me out about how I should show up earlier so I wouldn't miss so much practice. Interesting thing though, I was on deck before we even started stretching. Hmm...Nikki is encouraging my homewrecking habits. Oh well, at least I've found something I'm good at.

Random Thoughts for the Night:

• Starbursts
• Odwalla water
• Knitting
• Nikki being a saint, oh wait, that's like hell freezing over.

Ice is Cold

This morning I woke up early. Really early...like 6:15 early. I don't like waking up early. Ice is cold, but I don't have to swim anymore and that's good. I'm sitting here in an ITAP co-curricular for e-portfolios. So now I'm going to go be productive.

House Special: Awkward

Well, once again I have managed to put myself in an awkward and complicated situation with a guy. He's in a rocky and complex relationship with someone, but it's sort of like a relationshit. In the end, I think both parties will end up hurt and that won't even be my fault. Anyways, I did somehow manage to put myself somewhere inside this "thing." I sort of wish this wasn't published to people to actually read. Not that anyone I know would read it...haha. But I'm just afraid of putting names and such. It could fuck me over pretty bad.

Someone told me I have a nice smile and it made my night/morning. I said that I never cry, but that I was lying. I cry at Forrest Gump at the same point every time. It's when he finds out he has a son and he says that little Forrest is the most beautiful thing he's ever seen.

I'm upset with John and Maria. First for dating. Second for hiding it from me. I don't mind them dating, it's not as if they need my blessing, it's their lives. But I'm pretty sure that Maria doing that to me feels like a stab in the back. Please don't mind the fact that I've liked John since last Christmas...or earlier. Or the fact that we were pretty good friends. Maybe this is me being possessive and obviously jealous. John didn't like me in a dating sort of way. He would have never thought, "Oh, I'm going to go do something social, I'm going to call Erin." But he thinks of it for Maria, how sweet. urg.

But the real slap in the face comes when they tried to hide it from me. For my heart, that is truly shattering. I feel that I've always tried to not be a high-maintenance friend. I usually request one thing of the people that I call my friends: they're honest with me. Whether it's that the skirt makes me look fat or I said something that really hurt or you're dating one of my best friends, I just want honesty. Yes the truth hurts, but ignorance is not bliss. Finding out that someone tried to hide the truth from you is crushing. It's like have the air knocked out of you, but I still smile because that's what people expect from me...I'm happy and smiley. I can't cope with that. I don't think I could manage to be in the same room. Yes, it seems petty, but trust is trust. I'm pretty sure that I won't speak to John for awhile...and Maria for a longer while.

I like to say that a situation is awkward only if you make it awkward. This is one situation that I would intentionally make awkward. haha. I think they've been together since at least Thanksgiving. P.S. Of course I'm not bitter.

I really have to go clean my room, eat dinner, and think of a different arrangement for my furniture. Hasta Luego mi amor.

Me and Linnea

Ebs and Steve fighting...oh boys.

Random Thoughts for the Evening:

• Forrest Gump
• Rush
• Deception and Denial
• Smooth and Sleek
• Clingy

No Harm in Charm

Had practice this morning. Ouch. Aversion to stationary bike seats. Co-curricular today: No Harm in Charm, required for management fellows. Can't think in complete sentences. Watching movie later today with Linnea and Schouten. Sore muscles. bye.

Morning.

I'm back at school :( I had practice this morning and now I'm really tired. I'm pretty sure winter term is going to be hell. My suitemates are so happy and cheery...sometimes it's just a little freaky. But then again, I don't think I'm ever really happy or cheery around them, so they probably think I'm a moody bitch...which, now that I think about it, wouldn't be too far off the mark.

New Years...Adrie and Danny came over. It was actually quite fun! We watched A Knight's Tale and drank champagne.

So remind me to tell you why I'm upset with a couple people later, I don't feel like explaining right now. I'm going to go pretend like I'm going to class.

Random Thoughts for the Morning:

• Mascara
• Special K
• Heavy eyelids