Wish

I'm unhappy and sad. I don't like to be unhappy and sad, but right now I feel like I don't really have a choice. I wish people would be more honest with me. I wish people didn't break me. I wish I didn't push things to the point of hurt. I wish I could just let somethings be and let somethings go. I wish I could accept things the way they are since there isn't anything I can do to change them. I wish he didn't assume I didn't want to talk to him, even if all I would be able to handle was a hello. I wish she wasn't a bitch who just stopped everything as easily as snapping her fingers. I wish she had asked me how I felt instead of demanding an apology I can't give. I wish I could cry and sob and shake because I maybe it would make me feel better. I wish tears could fix things.

Oooo

La la la...I just wanted to write a post since I haven't in just about forever. Anyway, I'm going to write a list in my next post...it will be awesome.

Around

I've been around lately...chillin', dancing, homeworking, scrapbooking. It's been exciting. I also love music. And I have to-do list a mile long, so I don't really have time to write anything...maybe someday!

<3 Ed

Afro Blue

Second week of school and I'm behind...surprise there, I know. I need to read the Odyssey and write a paper on it...ulgh. Super soon here, I'm going to go get help with my calculus. I just need to wait for a media file to upload on libsyn.com. Hopefully I'll get a chance to write more stuff later today and when I say today I mean tonight.

First Day!

Today was the first day of classes! It was really exciting, let me tell you...haha. I'm psuedo excited about my calc class. I did my first homework assignment today; I'm ahead of the game. Of course this wonderful lead will leave me in a few days, but it is fun to have it while it lasts!

Today was also the first day that I used my credit card! It was way exciting! I bought my cs book with it. Speaking of cs, my partner smokes, ulgh...smoke. Now, four out of the five days a week, I'm going to load up on perfume and body spray and just smell myself the entire class period. On the plus side, Brit is in the class and she's totally awesome, so I'm excited about that!

Things I Need to Buy:

• Greek and Roman Mythology books (around $200)
• Gas ($40)
• Another months membership at IndySalsa ($40)
• Pay back Corinne ($30)

I think that's it, hopefully. I don't have the Target card anymore, so I'm basically sol. On the plus side I have a paycheck coming in this Friday and I'm working on convincing my parents that they need to send my gas cards since I'm driving a lot. We'll see how that works out.

Pop Remixes

Silly Little Updates:

iTunes has been annoying me because I can't listen to iTunes radio without skipping every two seconds to reconnect to the network. Lately I've been listening to AOL radio, which isn't bad. They have better pop stations and a great latin station.

I've been practicing salsa a lot...by myself. I feel really awkward practicing by myself, but it does give me a chance to practice things like spotting and going in a line while doing a cross-body lead with a turn. I keep trying to get my dad to let me teach him the steps, but he doesn't want to learn : ( I really don't know of anyone else in my general vicinity that would be willing to practice salsa with me. In fact, I don't know anyone who I wouldn't have to teach the steps to. On Saturday, Adrie came with me to my salsa lesson. It was so much fun, she really liked it. I hope she continues with it because she could be so good at it.

I dyed my hair earlier this week. I died it darker to match my eyebrows. As Adrie said, it's an instant way for me to look more pulled together. And that's pretty awesome!

V for Awesome!

Yes, yes, I know that awesome doesn't start with a V. I bought V for Vendetta yesterday and I love it! I saw it in theaters, so I already knew that I loved it. The movie is just so perfect. I watched it with Easter as soon as I got it. I cried during the part when Evey was in the prison and reading Sarah's autobiography.

Watching V for Vendetta makes me want to write a great paper about the characters that Hugo Weaving plays and their role in revolution. Between The Matrix and V for Vendetta Hugo has played roles that are the government and the revolutionary. I think that in its own way, even The Lord of the Rings series could be a revolution. I think I'll start reading about revolutions. The research for such a paper would be amazingly fun and I think I would quite enjoy it. Maybe if I go into film studies I could do a thesis on it. But we all know that I won't be going into film studies, so it doesn't really matter.

Today I think I will go get my French horn and maybe even practice it for a little bit. On a different note (haha, what a pun), My computer is annoying me because I can't get my USB peripherals to work. Just wanted everyone to know.